The sun has been shining for the past few days, and with its return, I feel hope. February is always bleak here, and March usually heralds small signs of spring. So, while it still feels like February in the dreary land of employment opportunities, I can at least look forward to spring cleaning, planting in the garden and hanging out in my driveway.
Still, it's hard for me to focus on all the good in my life. I know that sounds silly. But I can't help but think...what am I doing wrong? What piece of the puzzle am I missing? What's the use in planning for the future when it feels so frequently that I have no control over it? Does God have a bigger plan for me, or is he shaking his head sadly wondering why I made the decisions I did? Why is every step such a struggle? I can't help but think that I am missing some detail or that I possibly passed it up a long time ago without even realizing it.
I just don't know what to do next, and I need someone to lend me a compass.
